5.16.2011

Mom Fog

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on saturday a friend asked me how my week had been and i looked at her blankly.

the week.  i had no idea.  my mind was really blank.  as in, no memory.  it took me a day {i am not exaggerating} to reflect and piece my week back together... a dr.'s appt. on monday, a stay at home chore day on tuesday, an impromptu visit with a friend on wednesday, ethan's haircut thursday, and homemade pasta on friday.  just don't ask me what we ate for dinner or breakfast, or what i wore... i do not know.  i must have been on autopilot.

in a moment of clarity, i realized a very simple fact.  i am not taking proper care of myself.

i do not exercise.  at all.  and i won't count the ever-so cliche "i run after my kids" because, really, it isn't intentional exercise.

my sleeping patterns are horrid.  i stay up way to late.  get up early.  feel sleepy and run down all day, and then guzzle caffeine.  sounds really healthy, no?

my diet leaves a lot to be desired.  i give the healthy stuff to my kids and then skip meals and eat crap.  i do eat some healthy things, just not as consistently as i should.  and i can truly say:  my favorite food is butter.

if my children were not getting enough sleep, or not physically active, or not eating well -- i would be upset.  but here i am, not taking care of myself, and i am my children's example.

soo... i'll be working on this.  and by putting this on here, i feel like i will try to be more accountable.  in fact, i'll let you know how i did next monday.  because i need to make changes quickly...

please tell me some of you do this too... am i alone??

xoxo, s

4 comments:

  1. It's the great battle all women face - feeling guilty for not taking care of others enough, then feeling guilty for not taking care of ourselves. I'm not a mom and I still struggle to find balance, I can only imagine what it's like with two precious little ones! Good luck, and don't beat yourself up too hard!

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  2. Butter? YUM!! You are so not alone. Just this afternoon as I was looking at the bags under my eyes I thought, "damn girl, we have to do something about this!!" I stopped drinking soda, but I really need to drink more water. And stop skipping dinner so that I can eat a bowl of ice cream with strawberry sauce, cherries, and whipped cream.

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  3. Ugh, I eat total junk, drink too much coffee (and often wine) and stay up late doing random stuff! I feel ya.

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  4. I do this constantly too. Seriously, if you call me at 5pm and asked me how my morning was, I won't remember. It is crazy! Good for you for resolving to make a change. That is farther than I have gotten. You can do it!

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